God Knows Me – Really Knows Me
“O Lord, You have searched me and known me. You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thoughts afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways . . .” Psalm 139:1-3
I had plans to visit a friend a couple of hours from here, since my hubby was going in that area to help some friends who had a house fire recently. So time with hubby while driving- total of four hours – and time with another young mom and her two children makes a nice outing for me. I was looking forward to this treat.
I also have a friend who was very great with child due sometime the end of this month who had asked me to come help at the birth.
Well, we are really trying to watch pennies these days. Some other guys from church decided to go help repair the fire damaged house. So considering all things Japheth and I decided that the four youngest children and I should stay at home today, and they could save gas going together.
Last evening our bedroom phone got left somewhere downstairs. And yes, the call came, “She’s in labor. Do ya want to come?” I did not hear the phone ringing . . . but Japheth did.
So after going over and bringing their children to my in-laws I was there for the event, just fourteen minutes to spare!
“Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxieties . . . ”
But God . . . knows me . . . REALLY knows me! He knows the dread, the fears, the anxieties that circle ’round my heart the weeks before my own labor and delivery. He showed me from a different perspective . . . She made it look so easy . . . SO DOABLE! God spoke so clearly to me, ” Let go of your fears, your anxieties and rest . . .”
I cried on the way home.
God does really know me and cares about my “little” worries that constantly swirl around in my head and I don’t consciously consider that I worry so dreadfully about.
“Even there Your hand shall lead me and Your right hand shall hold me.” Psalm 139:10
January 20th, 2007 at 5:08 pm
Hmm…. I’m usually scared at the beginning of the pregnancy bc this (baby) is something that isn’t leaving until the labor.. so that is when i get scared… but by the end of the pregnancy, I’m so miserable, I’d endure anything to feel good again.
I also helped with a birth once where the woman made it look like a piece of cake and delivered her first baby at over 11 lbs. I was truly in awe. GOd does know each of us individually and he cares so much about our hearts and each life change, that is what is phenomenal!
January 20th, 2007 at 8:46 pm
Ummm, I always felt that *you* made it look easy!!! You are such a blessing to me!