Just a Daisy in the Meadow

To those of you who have been pregnant and to those of you who haven’t . . . please pray with me for joy in this journey.

To be honest . . . maybe I have just been pregnant for too many times in the almost seven (Oct.28th) years that we have been married . . . there haven’t been very many months when I haven’t been expecting a child.

I truly love my children fiercely and probably if I had to do it over again, I would choose the same path . . . but please allow this woman to share her feelings (and then I’ll feel better . . . isn’t that a woman thing?) You know, I’m not asking for advice nor do I want you to “fix” it . . . I just want a listening, sympathetic ear, a shoulder to cry on and someone to laugh with . . . I am after all very pregnant and need a good cry!!!

Okay, here’s the history . . . We had a honeymoon baby. I was in poor health to begin with. Adjusting to married life, a new community and 24 long hours from where I grew up. I had cancer again. Surgery had to wait till a few months after baby came. Then Jeremiah came along 14 months after Japheth on Labor Day( Sept). That February I miscarried twins three months along. Then in June I miscarried Jewel (six weeks) then the next March came Loraine, then the next March came Wayne, then the next April came Jaden. (He is is 17 months old now and I am due in Nov).

Each of these babies (especially the first ones) I HAD to trust God that strength would come to care for them, cause I couldn’t see how in my frail human way that I could do it. God was faithful . . . there were many days of tears and frustrations, but many days of joys also . . . I think though in the last few years (now that I’m recovered from cancer) I’ve been trying to do more things in my own strength, not leaning as hard . . . and today I realize that once again I need him desperately to fill my life with JOY for the journey as I am feeling desperately sick and tired of being pregnant . . .

“The Lord is their strength, and He is the saving refuge of His anointed. Save your people, and bless your inheritance; Shepherd them also and bear them up forever.” – Psalm 28:8-9

Now enough said of that . . . if you are a praying person though please join me in prayer for a friend, that I haven’t been in much contact with, but who has lots of children close together too and more than I. I am praying that she (Lily) would be able to come to Ladies Retreat in Sept. She lives in Wis. . . .”Oh, Lord, send someone to care for her family so that she could come and be refreshed in spirit if not in body also . . . ”

And for another gal I wish could go . . . please pray with me for their encouragement whether God answers in the specific way I am thinking or not . . . Just pray for them.

LeRoy Yoder . . . home with Jesus . . . welcomed by friends and loved ones . . . enthralled in that land of glory . . . singing and shouting with the saints . . . kneeing before the throne . . . talking with God . . .

Just thinking about it makes me homesick . . .

“When the saints go marching in . . . Oh, Lord, I want to be in that number, when the saints go marching in.”

“Blessing and honor and glory and power be to Him who sits on the throne, and to the Lamb, forever and forever.” – Revelation 5:13b

“HOLY, HOLY, HOLY, Lord God Almighty, who was and is and is to come . . .” – Rev. 4:8b

Japheth made a little poster for in his store with these words on it. “#2 Question – Is this the day I die?” (It comes from the book Safely Home by Randy Alcorn . . .)

. . . It is to help people remember the #1 Question. Can you guess what that would be?

Glorious!

A WHOLE field full!!!

Pregnancy is going well . . . uhmmm, growing well!!!

. . . Especially when I focus on remembering the little somebody that we will one day see instead of all the aches and pains and tiredness that come along with being pregnant.

. . .That is what one HAS to do . . . ” who for the joy that was set before him (her) endured. . .” (Anyone have advice for one who has varicose veins creeping up ones leg?)