I Will Pray and Cry Aloud
There’s not too many places one can cry in private in this household . . . and the other day I was outside in tears (I wasn’t particularly wanting their attention at the moment)when my six year old asks Japheth, “Does Mama have to go to the bathroom?” (Ah, if only that was the extent of it . . .) You know how it is for them . . . they have to go soooo bad and at times don’t come in soon enough . . . I guess this is what they thought happened with Mama!
And today . . . my tears consisted of my heart’s cry “Oh, that they had such a heart in them that they would fear me and ALWAYS keep all my commandments that it might be well with them and with their children forever!” The frustration of all the PRECEPTS and LINES and HERE A LITTLE and THERE A LITTLE’s that it takes to get something across . . . It would be much easier to take up dog training me thinks 
I think too that there are times to let the children see that this “problem” brings you to your knees and how distressing it is,in that it makes one cry aloud . . . Maybe this doesn’t happen with you . . . but if you have one child multiply that by six, add a certain time of the month and a REALLY messy house and I assure you, that YOU will be in tears too. Trust me.
“As for me, I will call upon God,
And the Lord shall save me.
Evening and at morning and at noon
Will I pray and cry aloud,
And He shall hear my voice,
He has redeemed my soul in peace from the battle that was against me
For there are many against me . . .
Cast your burden upon the Lord
And He will sustain you;
He will never permit the righteous to be moved . . .
You number my wanderings;
Put my tears into your bottle;
Are they not in your book?
When I cry out to you . . .
- Taken from Psalm 55 & 56
March 27th, 2008 at 11:32 am
Dear Aimee,
You put in words some feelings and prayers I have felt recently or shall I say regularly! It’s not easy to train children. It seems to take more than I think I am capable of and yet, God gives grace. Thanks for including me in your post; I am honored and humbled.
Sylvia
March 27th, 2008 at 12:13 pm
Oh, just this morning I was so close to tears myself with this very issue!! If there is one thing that having children does for you, it’s bring you to the end of yourself and to your knees!!!! Thank you for this timely post–it was encouraging to know that I am not alone in this, and that yes, we have SOMEONE to run to!!
And yes, sometimes I think it IS good if the children realize the seriousness of it and let them see us cry (I have come to tears at times and have had them pray with me–and it always seems to make a deep impression on their hearts), but I think we do need to be careful that we don’t use it as a lever for penitence/sympathy from them. Just my thoughts. But thanks again for this encouragement!
March 27th, 2008 at 3:38 pm
I was having the same sentiment earlier this afternoon, after Vernon got home, about how I just can’t get on top of things! He was reminding me that Kaylie will pick up on getting upset and how easy it is to get that way, by watching my ranting behavior. I look around, and every corner has clutter or dirt! So why am I on here? =] I have my reasons, believe me!
March 28th, 2008 at 3:51 am
Good morning Aimee. I just wanted to write this last time. I am having my internet service disconnected. The server I use is not a good one. It has been nice to have written before to you. And I to have thoroughly enjoyed reading your inspiring words. I will continue to pray for you an your young family. And I will pray for God to bless all of you . I want to think of myself as an encourager. But sometimes I to would like to be built up as well. It can be a real spiritual battle sometimes. May God bless you and your many friends an acquaintances who visit your site often. I praise God for whom all blessings flow!! Please continue to keep me in your prayers, an pray for the nursing homes we have church in. Again thank-you for any prayers you’ve already lifted up for me an my family. Bless you…..Cheryl T. in N.C.
April 1st, 2008 at 7:38 am
Whew, I really needed this yesterday! And it was a great incouragment this morning. It sure helps to know that other moms are driven to their knees for their children. I needed to be reminded again of the “line upon line” concept and let time and God do their work in my children and not expect my six-year-old to act grown up yet!
April 4th, 2008 at 4:10 am
Oh…I have been there…and will be there again…many times I am sure!!! I understand and totally feel for you!!!I pray your day got better!!
April 16th, 2008 at 1:28 pm
Ah yes I clearly remember those moments with 4 little ones under foot and actually recorded some of them on video….But my heart breaks for new reasons as I watch them stumbling thru their growing pains and how often do I allow myself to “OK” an issue cuz it’s easier…NO! I need to stop and address it NOW cuz they are SO moldable yet and I have such BIG desires for them all! Crying out to our Abba FAther is so healing tho and HE is hearing our cries for help as we travel the paths of Mothering….Thanks for that refreshing post!